hunger pangs

this reminds me of my first blog add, about being perpetually hungry.

but anyway, lol the main point of this post was to talk bout how smells make u hugnry.
like i just ate dinner an hour ago nd i'm still feeling full
but some neighobur in ahll is eating pizza
and i'm smelling the cheese and bread and tomatoes
all melting oozing cheese
DANG IT

i feel like eating !!!!!!!!!!

but i can't :(
well first it would be jsut plain greedy to eat anymore
plus wihtout aikido as a source of exercise i'm gonna be fat
FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

ELBOW FASTER HEAL
so i can eat more lol

elbow

So on wednesday, during aikido, I somehow fell wrongly and landed elbow first.
It was quite weird. Because I've been doing flips so many times and I've finally managed to get it right
So it was shocking to fall down so wrongly that I slammed my elbow on the mats instead of the whole arm.
GARH PAIN!

And the next day I think something must have swelled up badly internally that my forearm and hands started looking ridiculously blue.
I freaked and went to the medical centre at NTU and had to go get an X-ray
Which was interesting coz it was super fast (waiting time wasn't)
click click
DONE

but the film luckily showed no breaks, no intense swelling. Just me feeling sore and bruised.

so for now, i'll try to be as left handed as possible. and it just shows how much we use our dominant hand wihtout thinking. i gotta constantly keep switching hands

songs to try out

I just rediscovered lene marlin's song Unforgivable Sinner
Its really nice but I still can't decide what the lyrics are about and it turns out the singer herself kinda refuses to say what thesong means to her because she wants the listeners to have their own idea bout it.



must try it out ont the guitar when i get back home
plus
1. call me maybe
2. drive by -train
3. stronger -kelly clarkson
4. everything - m2m
5. ugly coyote songs
6. I'm the only one -melissa etheridge

STUPID CAT

seriosuly
WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE HALL CATS?????????????

They love to come into my room.
and just now, i found one sleeping on my bed
MY BED
MY BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fucking cat

IT SLEPT ON MY BED!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't even know it came into my room
coz i was busy doing my stupid fyp
AND THE STUPID CAT climbed up my BED

GARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life as a final sem student

frankly life is quite depressing nowadays.
Being a final sem student just means its time to look no wait, HUNT for a job. because lets face it, not having a job once i graduate is a scary thought.
I'll have to stay in SG paying rent in SGD with no income at all. and that's scary shit because I'll be using parent's MYR money to do that.

Not only is my degree useless in any other industry but aviation, but being a foreigner, i'm automatically disqualified from so many comapnies.
DAMN U rasicst shits (P&W to name among others)

i think i've finally decided what i wanna do.
i wanna work in any airline companies!!
unforutnately having to serve out hte bond, there's only one company, SIA and I've already been rejected for one job i've applied there which sucks tremendously.

and now my FYP, anohter depressing topic because it's been going nowehre
most of the stuff i've done is either too little or just plain does not work
I've had another idea based on this research paper I luckily found. so hopefully that works out

and its also knoin that my student life icoming to an end which is also sad
no more long breaks or holidays where i can lepak at home

and i'm also teaching music more so i feel myself being tied down more here at sg in comparison to 1st year when i could just escape back home whenever there were any long weekends which was awesome but so not doable now.

i think all these make up the reasons as to why i'm so depressed and reluctant to do anything. I've really lost the drive to study which goes to show that it was a good decicsion to turn down the Phd hing evn htough the prof was prety awesome.

i've also decided to go ahead with taking the violin gd8 exam finally. so that's a good thing. no point being stuck at one lvl. its defintiely a big incentive to learn more when i realize that i seem to be getting more violin students.

and now.................

end of rant
(back to WORK)

wendy wax
alexander mccall

things to ask prof

no idea how to decide on the lengths
(journals seems to just arbitrarily decide)

How do i know what force to put in???
what motor to use? or even the power source? the voltage?
spring length and k?
how to knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

do i need to design wings?

do i need to conduct tests on the performance?
-produce graphs on the lifting force provided?
some previous fyps and journals do that